christmas spirit in mie

there are so many days dat i felt so tired.....
tired of my work.....tired of college.....tired of friends....tired of people around me....tired of seeing things dat i dowana see...hearing things that i hate...tired of being left out...tired of being "sabo" by people around me...i guess..im just tired of being me at times....

no...i am not sayin i hate myself....i *wuff* myself more den anitin....when i say i am tired...i just wanna be alone.....i cant be goin "crazy n joking" all da time....even an energy bunny also boleh habis baterry de k...xD

i had frens around me....frens....good frens.....bad frens....hi-bye frens....i-got-nutin-to-talk-to-u frens....faker frens...when-i-hav-no-one-to-talk-i-will-talk-to-u-frens....take things for granted frens.....listener frend...unseeen fren....internet fren..even facebook fren! lol
etc etc....havin heard of da term true frens...i doubt if i ever have true frens....true enough i have frens dat laugh with me....but frens dat cry with me.....i can barely recall.....how many of them dat is actually there for me when i needed them.......*thx to thos "victims" of mine who r there to hear me squeking bout mie*

havin to lose friendship....is something dat i guess normal to us...u meet someone...u click....became instant fren...like maggi mee. everything wen smooth at 1st...there were something wat we call relationship.....sudd there comes da "tsunami".....*poff*
he/she flips over.....no more friendship...welcome "enamy-ship" or "no-talk-ship".....u see him/her..but u guys are invisile..as tho u 2 grew up eating glasses instead of rice!
i had frens like tis....not many..but i have.
i see no problem coming into the relationship...then...ppl just change...not blaming anyone...i know i changed too....
well...depressing myself over people who dont see & respect me as frens....
the question WHY this happened & WHY that happened just keep playin in my head like radio that gone gila....keep repeating........i blame everything around me...even the dear fren of mine called "the-time-of-the-month" (like la i can control the hormones in me...then i won be THE HULK le..lol)
when the wire in my head sudd snap....i suck it all in....gather myself up...i move on!
(dun tell me u hav never experienced this before......opps...maybe for guys not the time of da month case! sorie...xD)

i had my fair share of relationships like tis...
i try not to lose friendship with anyone that i have already met or have yet to meet in the coming days of my life......
therefore.....if at any times...or any days..or under watever past situation...i sincerely apologise to the people i love n da people around me if i,yvonne have ever hurt ur feelings....
christmas is da time to *wuff*! *hugs & kisses*