open house horror -.-

today...on the fatefull 2nd day of the chinese new year....
i see & feel the REAL malaysian culture.....so much og it that it pissed the hell outta me!
i was at the open house organised by the MCA of sitiawan....housed by the local Dato = Dato Kong our very own Deputy Minister of Treasury Department a.k.a Timbalan Menteri Kewangan la...
was there to help my mum as volenteer...managing the food stall....

3 words......HORROR..HORROR..and lastly....HORROR!
damn thos stupid uncivilised barbarians idiots!!!!! *roll eyes*

i noe its a freakin open house...but please la..show some manners k! and not forgetting respect for thos helpers.....
thos greedy gluttons ( i hope they lausai la after this!!! ).....they just take & take & take the foods without considering others! like if u noe u dun makan that shit please dont take can bo?

pissed me off that thos kampung-ers take them all for the sake of taking!
bungkus bungkus bungkus saja tau! *shake head in disbelief*
i think they feel syiok la to tapao tapao all the foods....
its really an ugly sight....if only u were there to witness their behaviours.....
but then again...its a MALAYSIAN culture i gues...to tapao tapao....

it certainly is funny if u are the ones watchin or doing it....
but if u are the ones that they take advantage of and push around just so that they can freakingly take the blardiful FRIED CHICKEN and kena molest in a way not forgetting falling down,.it certainly is NOT FUNNY AT ALL!!!! * roar *

can u believe that the whole tray of food.......within 5 SECONDS is gone! like reli gone.
me n sis so suey la...was sitting in front of the food when the tauke ayam served in the fried chic....n guess what ...even when we ask them not to take..we an still see hands taking the freakin chickens!
and when one start it......

*OMGOSH*

they start pushin as tho they haven been eating for ages!
if this were to happen in Gaza...i would not be surprised at all! *.....*
but its in a freakin place where people burn their money the night before playin fireworks n stuffs!
me and my sis was pushed over by those barbarians....we almost fell...both of us was like....
"YOH......AH.....EEEIIIIIII......"
but u noe what....no one gives a BLARDY SHIT bout us......
i stood up...gain my balance...and shouted....

"WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!" ( i noe.....swt rite!but i would like to clarify...i rarely use the word..unless things like this happen la....xD)

when i turn around.....guess what again?
not a SINGLE people around us......
i swear....this all happened in less den 5seconds!
seriously....its such an ugly side and dun blame me for losing my temper....
im not even a teacher yet...so i dont and wont care less bout using the F word in public!
DAMN thos ppl!!!!! i feel like throwing the whole tray of chicken on the ground and see if they can still fight over the few pieces of chicken!
ShOOT THEM molester! * sob sob*

*sigh*

no more open house! unless i am the invited special guess where hotties serves me! xD
and nothing is free in this world! so i rather pay and get nice yummy free food not forgetting service that is worth my money!

happie chinese moo moo year!

*hApPy ChInESe mOo MoO yEaR*

this new year sure is a new year for me.......
apart from the usual

mandarin oranges










cookies....*yumyum*











PORK PORK PORK! xD







and how can we ever forget this.......









*woo~~~ ANG POWS!!!! *smirk*







my family is celebrating cow cow in our new house...finally..all settled.....all done....(er..okla..haven reli finis cleaning la..but still acceptable for me la! haha...xD)
we hav a new star in our living room! hihihi....cute!






* PINK star! with my mum+dad de wedding pic! *








wishing everybody a blessed Chinese New Year! *loves*

*hApPy ChInESe mOo MoO yEaR*

i refuse to be discouraged!!!!

im tired...physically,mentally and emotionally.
things seems to get from bad to worse.
maybe its just my own sensitivity that i felt as though life is so unfair to me.
i don't understand how things are working.
how God is working with me.
how i am working with others.
how people see me.
how i see people.
so many "howS".....yet...i have no answer to those questions that is ringing in my head!
with all the negative energy that i am being fed......i feel tired.
i just wanna rest.
i am a human being.not robot.
but why incidents after incidents come haunting me?
i just want a happy life.
a normal life would be the exact word.
not to be hated but to be loved.
but no...i was not given such life.....maybe worse? i don't know.....
life seems to be so hard for me.....draining all my energy away from me....
sometimes i do wonder......what am i doing here?
life sux here...this is not where i wanna be.....this is not what i wanna do for the rest of my life.....
still....i am here....there is no turning back....
pls remind me of why i am here.
yes. god.deep in my heart i know....this is what He wants me to do.

i need to learn to be in control of things....not being controlled by things.....
i am learning to be someone strong.
to learn to have faith that every single thing is meant to teach me something.

i am grateful that someone manage to console me with the words of God.....i am grateful to him.
no one has ever......use words of encouragement like the words he use to bring me back to my senses. to make me realise all this.
for i did not know that...all this while i was trying to plese men....not God.....
people judge.....but The Lord....he won't forsaken me nor will he Judge me.....because i am His children...and he will never leave me alone to stand up after falling.....

this poem is a beautiful poem.........

I REFUSE TO BE DISCOURAGED.

i refuse to be discouraged..to be sad or to cry ;
i refuse to be down-hearted...and here's the reasons why ;-
i have a God who's mighty...who's sovereign and supreme ;
I have a God who loves me...and i am on His team.
He is all wise and powerful...Jesus is His name ;
through everything is changable...My God remain the same ;
My God knows all that's happening...Beginning to the end ;
His presence is my comfort..He is my dearest friend.
When sickness comes to weaken me...
To bring my head down low, I call upon my mighty God....
Into His arms i go.
When circumstances threaten to rob me of my peace ;
He draws me cloe to His breast..where all my striving cease ;
And when my heart melts within me...and weakness takes control ;
He gathers me into His arms..He soothes my heart and soul.
The great "I AM" is with me...my life is in His hand ,
The "Son Of The Lord" id my hope...Its in His strength i stand.
i refuse to be deafeated...my eyes are on my God ;
He has promised to be with me...as through this life i trod.
I'm looking past all my circumstances...to heaven above ;
My prayers have reached the God's heart...
I'm resting in His love,
I give God thanks in everything...my eyes are on His face ;
The battle's His, the victory is mine...
He'll help me win the race.

anon

i will be fine.
i refuse to be discouraged.

anoder 1st for vonvon!

i got my first henna done on my hand! got it during the Ponggal exhibition by the Indian society of out college! its cool! *love it*

BEHOLD.........*cue of something pretty coming* xD

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i love it in this color! taken rite after it's done.

pretty neh.....xD

phyllis's & yvonne's ^^


this is after the dried paste are removed..i prefer the dark choc color...but...its still pretty for me! kaka...xD


*tadah*...can b "hand model" ? kaka...xD kiddin.


to end this post! its mie + my cute henna! *kisses*

p/s : i am soo guilty of bloggin here...when i have not finis my assignment! plus...i am sick ( fever) . i shud be sleeping! gotta sleep now! *hugs & kisses* till i blog again! ^^


p/p/s : did i mention that it was only rm2? my friend got it for rm1 cause they do it earlier....*sulk* but its still a very reasonable price la..right?

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its been freaking long since i last blogged......busy busy busy......xD

however......i really feel that i need to blog to get this thing that i am like what my blog title says...make me *speechless*....well....okla...i can never be speechless...i mean its rare....i complained as i really feel that i have been treated very unfairly........i need to let it out.i know.....y posting this blog...i am taking a huge risk....might be digging my own grave also......well.....i dont really care......i just need to vent out what has been going on in my mind for the past few days....i dont feel nice at all.

this week has been very different to me...because....i feel so insecure being around the college...so many things that i see and hear i feel is "corrupting" my mind....seriously..this palestine-gaza-israel-jew-america thingy need to stop. pls....tolong la..let me go.....i am so sick of it.....pls do not get me wrong...i feel sorry and sad for the victims....i am also a human with feelings and definately seeing people being tortured and homeless makes me mad as well.......like how can human rights b violated to that stage.....right? no one should be treated like that.

however.....some people...by this i really do mean some....chose to believe and to think that we ( non-bumis') gives no shit at all regarding this issue.......come on...please be rational..just because palestine is an islamic does not mean that i do not and wont care or try to help them!!!

today's assembly....some fella went up to the stage and gave a piece of his mind.by saying so i dnt think i am exaggerating this.
am i the only one that feel insulted when he say things like " isu palestine bukan isu umat islam sahaja..ia adalah masalah sejagat..jikalau anda adalah manusia...anda patut tahu apa yang anda tahau kerana ini adalah berkaitan dengan isu kemanusiaan...bla bla bla...yada yada......???" *close ears lalala* (something like this la..u get what i mean)
freaking long annoying piece of crap cause i somehow or rather feels like they are referring to the non-bumis' that we don't give a shit bout it. *pissed*

look.we do care.if not we would not even bother to noe bout it k! just because i do not say it out loud doesn't mean that i dun care. *roll roll eyes*


and...and....whats with the stupid boycott thingy la.....its just ridiculous la....come on....if we (college people ) were to really boycott tesco...where do we go to get out tesco choc chips cookies ( my fav) ...or biscuits.....or milo...etc etc....we have everything in tesco. and having a tesco beside us is what makes our life not so miserable right? u gotta admit it people..(sorry referring to my college people)
p/s : do not eat cafe food as well cause u know what...all their vege...meat n stuffs....are from tesco! so eat no food people! * fake smile*

there is this leaflet that some people printed out and posted on our hostel notice board...i shall let u all see what goodies that u should not buy!
these are just a snippet of it. sori that some are blur...cause i took it like secretly..lol..xD










this is the piece of paper














no MacD!

no finger licking moment with KFC!

maggi? tak boleh!








bye bye honeystar...kokocrunch...yogurt....T.T









darn it...cola pun tak boleh drink a?!?







to all you starbuck-rians....its time for kopitiam!







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ok...throw away all your phones now u nokia kia-s!!!!







see no brad pitt....megan fox.....boycott boycott boycott!








the same fate goes to mickey minie....etc etc.....











mau pakai pad pun susah!!! *ouch*









this is just some of the whole lot of product...........==

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*roll eyes till eye balls drops*

p/s : sorry for the super long crappy post...its my blog..i write what i wana write..! xD but i still need to make this thing clear...its not about politic or racist or watsoever....i do feel for the palestine people.....i do hope all this ugly scenes wil come to an end....no war = peace!

mind tester

during the holidays, i was shopping around with my mum & sis for groceries in a shopping market back in my hometown...we chance upon this interesting tester...! ^^ u know how everybody likes testers right! the more the better! haha... xD i personally loves testers too...however....this one tester that i saw...*fuh....* its a miracle if anyone will be wiling to try it there & then! okie okie.....well...i know u r asking me " how can one say no to tester?!? free things to test....u dowan a? only stupid people will refuse a tester! " well..maybe u will stand with me on this special unique case! behold....the tester that we saw.........is...........
*drum rolls*....
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.*tadah*

freakin SANITARY tester.............*snigger & giggle*

can anyone please kindly tell me how do you test it there? lol...xD

shakespear's brain

congratulations to me.....1st week back to college we got a pre-CNY gift!

my gift.....................*drum rolls*......to REDO our freaking 2008 assignment 2 for our English Studies subject. in case you people out there who don't know what English Studies is.....its actually LITERATURE. you know the one that you did in form 5 except that in my course now...they expect us to like be Shakespear!

our second asignment was to have us search in the net for a poem themed youth. then we were to present the whole poem inclusive of all the themes, literary devices, tone, mood, etc etc,.....then we were to write a critical analysis. *going all shakespearean*

i tot i was doing ok...like boleh pass la....mana tau.....wah piang eh......GELI! one word says it all.
have to freakingly REDO it........@#$%^&#$%^
but no one is to be blamed.i am the one.for i am not smart neither do i think like shakespear! so i freakingly find it super duper hard to argue & to find strong justification for my assignmnt.

to me...reading the poems are slowly making me a siao po...cause most of the time...like say 80% you don't really know what you are reading. worse...when you feel like you understand it...you try to explain it.....you hav like no idea what you are trying to say cause people just dont seem to understand you. and trust me...you get headache every single freakin class of english studies! i swear. not joking. i get that all the time after class. *signs of shakespear oppression*

so dear lord! pls listen to my prayer! darn! i reli need to bring out the shakespear in me to at least able to pass up a piece of presentable accpetable reasonable assignment!

hope no more REDO after this. its scary.berry.

back to school..i mean JAIL.

as i am blogging this piece i am back in my "beloved" college....
i am still staying in the same block ( pala < style="font-size:130%;">30 more staircase to climb! *damn*
i cant imagina da days when i will have to drag myself up to my room to rest after classes & activities.....the trouble i need to take to go downstairs to get the "super clean yellowish" water to boil as drinking water..the amout of energy usd to walk to my "super clean cafe" which requires me to go up about 20 more steps before i reach it......& to walk back to my room again......its a waste of energy lo!

however....being a reasonable me.....i have also positive things to talk bout...^^
going up and down the stairs means more CALORIES burned! *woo~~~*
and this means i get to burn those freakin little things EVERY single day! thin thin thin! *skip & hop around!* xD
see....im quite optimistic rite? muahaha...*wink*

haiz......tmr gona start class liao....sien...reli sien.....i dread cumin bac here...to study! haha..xD
hopefully i will b able to wake up tmr & get myself ready for class! desperately need a boost to get myself the BACK TO SCHOOL MOOD!
*wish me luck*