i refuse to be discouraged!!!!

im tired...physically,mentally and emotionally.
things seems to get from bad to worse.
maybe its just my own sensitivity that i felt as though life is so unfair to me.
i don't understand how things are working.
how God is working with me.
how i am working with others.
how people see me.
how i see people.
so many "howS".....yet...i have no answer to those questions that is ringing in my head!
with all the negative energy that i am being fed......i feel tired.
i just wanna rest.
i am a human being.not robot.
but why incidents after incidents come haunting me?
i just want a happy life.
a normal life would be the exact word.
not to be hated but to be loved.
but no...i was not given such life.....maybe worse? i don't know.....
life seems to be so hard for me.....draining all my energy away from me....
sometimes i do wonder......what am i doing here?
life sux here...this is not where i wanna be.....this is not what i wanna do for the rest of my life.....
still....i am here....there is no turning back....
pls remind me of why i am here.
yes. god.deep in my heart i know....this is what He wants me to do.

i need to learn to be in control of things....not being controlled by things.....
i am learning to be someone strong.
to learn to have faith that every single thing is meant to teach me something.

i am grateful that someone manage to console me with the words of God.....i am grateful to him.
no one has ever......use words of encouragement like the words he use to bring me back to my senses. to make me realise all this.
for i did not know that...all this while i was trying to plese men....not God.....
people judge.....but The Lord....he won't forsaken me nor will he Judge me.....because i am His children...and he will never leave me alone to stand up after falling.....

this poem is a beautiful poem.........

I REFUSE TO BE DISCOURAGED.

i refuse to be discouraged..to be sad or to cry ;
i refuse to be down-hearted...and here's the reasons why ;-
i have a God who's mighty...who's sovereign and supreme ;
I have a God who loves me...and i am on His team.
He is all wise and powerful...Jesus is His name ;
through everything is changable...My God remain the same ;
My God knows all that's happening...Beginning to the end ;
His presence is my comfort..He is my dearest friend.
When sickness comes to weaken me...
To bring my head down low, I call upon my mighty God....
Into His arms i go.
When circumstances threaten to rob me of my peace ;
He draws me cloe to His breast..where all my striving cease ;
And when my heart melts within me...and weakness takes control ;
He gathers me into His arms..He soothes my heart and soul.
The great "I AM" is with me...my life is in His hand ,
The "Son Of The Lord" id my hope...Its in His strength i stand.
i refuse to be deafeated...my eyes are on my God ;
He has promised to be with me...as through this life i trod.
I'm looking past all my circumstances...to heaven above ;
My prayers have reached the God's heart...
I'm resting in His love,
I give God thanks in everything...my eyes are on His face ;
The battle's His, the victory is mine...
He'll help me win the race.

anon

i will be fine.
i refuse to be discouraged.